Promises

I lack in the promise department. Just today I lied about 3 promises, BUT I just want it to be known that there are certain duties I promise to always take care of.

1. I promise to be the first Happy Haircut you receive after any haircut. I don't care the circumstances I will wish you one. Even if it was just a trim, haircuts should be celebrated more often.

2. I promise that if you are going to sneeze while I am in the room with you that I will fight to bless you before that sneeze exits your mouth. This one is selfish. My dad when I was younger told me that if you blessed a person before they sneezed the blesser gets the blessing. In a 100 person lecture hall if a sneeze is about to take place, I am on it. A girl needs a lot of blessings.

3. I promise you that I will never have socks on when I am supposed to have them on.

That's all the promises I can make.

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2014.

Currently watching the Winter Classic, but I thought it was really important to jot down some goals I want to achieve in 2014. I know my first blog post was primarily me just saying every thing I wanted to do EVER, but this one is a little smaller.

BEFORE I list my 2014 resolutions, I'm just going to recap my New Years Eve, because it was amazing. My best friend and I traveled down to New York City for the Midnight Run presented by Emerald Nuts. Before hand I was really nervous. The run was a 4 mile run, and I have not ran outside for 4 miles since warmer weather. We practiced a few times, but not as well as I thought we could of. REGARDLESS we did great. We were able to run straight through and keep a solid 10 minute mile. On the subway on the way to pick up our numbers and shirts we met a man. He really intimidated me. He was telling us how much he loved running, how much he runs, and how he came in 3rd last year. That was cool and all, but all I wanted to do was race for fun. Once we got to Central Park everything was great. The event was just so fun, and everything was so encouraging. I forgot how much I love running in giant packs. When running with everyone else you feel like you do not want to stop because you're having such a good time.Basically it was perfect, and we were flawless at traveling. Now I'm having a lazy day where I sit and watch hockey all day. I like 2014 much already.

Okay so I jotted these down on my phone this morning, but blogging feels more permanent. I really like stalking myself so if I ever go back, here there are.

Run More.  I just want to run more and get better at it. I want to be able to run more races 5ks, Spartan Race, and a half marathon. I want myself to remember how good running makes me feel, and if I'm ever bummed out instead of sitting on the computer looking at how happy everyone is, I want to be able to get out there and go run!  With this comes just being healthier. I want to eat well, but I also want to be able to enjoy my life and not obsess over what goes in my mouth. I just want to be more conscious about what's going in my body! 

Mental Power. You know what's crazy? Most the problems I find myself in, are all in my head. I mean they're all real issues, but I'm literally able to tackle them. Life is just a mental mind game. I want to know I'm able to do it. I want to be able to develop a will power, knowing I can do what I set my goals to be.

Be Happy. I wrote this on my list twice so it must be legit.  I want to focus on my future, and not wander back on negative thoughts. I want to make sure I'm appreciative to everyone who matters to me, and love my family and friends. I want them to understand how grateful I am for them. I want to care more and worry less. I want to get a little bit stronger with how I view situations, and just be brave.

Increase Productivity. I'm not sure why I find doing class readings impossible, but I do. I never do them past the third week of college. I want to actually be involved with class and be prepared. I want to make sure my time is being used wisely! I want to use a calendar and schedule. Also I want to print out some Don't Break The Chain Calendars for  the year.

Read. I love reading, but always tell myself I don't have enough time. Guess what? I probably do have enough time. I want to read more books outside of my usual romantic teenage books, or action type. I want to read more self help books, and also read the bible. I've been wanting to for years, and I've read a good portion of it when I was younger, but heck why not.

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Unimaginable

Morning! I just woke up from sleeping a solid 12 hour sleep. I'm feeling pretty good and I slept off the headache that I had last night. Anyways I just want my blog to be filled with good vibes and positive messages. 

I have this quote  hanging up in my bedroom up at college. It's just a nice reminder that nothing is set in stone in life, especially right now in college. It encourages me to have an open-mind and open-heart. Sometimes I have a hard time  doing this because my life is so unknown, and I don't know what I'll be doing for the rest of my life, BUT it's okay. Basically I like this quote because it helps me try to attempt to be more open to everything and everyone, which I want to strive to do more often.

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Timing

So blogging often never worked out for me. I over think everything and every word and wind up giving up. Giving up is a pretty common trend in my life. With 2013 quickly coming to an end I feel really excited. 2013 was a really rough year for me, but also one of the best. I have huge plans for my life, especially 2014. Going into 2014 with no bad vibes holding me back is absolutely amazing.

2013 started out poorly for me. I was in a relationship that sucked. I was constantly upset over that and had a hard time realizing it wasn't me. With this though came one of the best decisions of my life. During one of the fights I was upset and sprawled out on my couch. I was talking to my mom how I really wanted to go abroad to Africa and explore and help out. We had discussed it for awhile, but nothing became official till this one night. I'm truly thankful for that.

While away in Africa I was so upset with myself. I was working with literal babies who have had a tougher THREE years of life than I will (hopefully) ever face in my life time. Perspective got me dude. I no longer wanted to waste time fighting with a boy who could care less. I ended things, but expected that we could still be good pals. Guess what folks? You can't be good pals with someone you break up with. So literally for MONTHS I was being a desperate girl, I wouldn't even say girl.. I'd say desperate friend because all I wanted was my friend back. Regardless it didn't work out and every single witty/funny/emotional message I sent was disregarded. It sucked a lot. People get new friends, new girl friends, and change. I was trying to hold him back in the past which he was not interested in...CLEARLY. And guess what? It's okay to want to start with a blank slate. He could have done it in a much nicer way, and from this I learned a little life lesson. I don't ever wanna treat anyone like that. Everyone deserves to feel like their feelings matter. 

ANYWAYS focusing on that too much isn't my favorite thing. Being screwed over is not fun to admit, but it was half of my 2013 so I want to respect it.

But from this I learned so many things about me. This is the most corny thing I have ever said in my life, but also feels the most accurate. I truly was completely dependent on this kid. I hated college, and instead of focusing on being productive I would run away to his school and his scary friends. Not cool self. I want to be able to tackle things and not run away from problems. After having this friendship ruined I really focused on being able to finishing school as soon as possible. Without having somewhere to escape to every weekend.. OK OK I WENT HOME A LOT TO WORK... but besides that I was able to figure out my schedule out well enough to be able to graduate early. 

I've been able to be the most selfish girl in the world and only care about my family and myself. My two cousins have become my best friends and even though at times it feels pathetic it feels very secure. They're the ones who have known me forever, and we'll always be tied together in some way. I love them and they both helped me get through the year in more ways than they know. 

Also this year I have been able to do things alone. I used to be terrified to shop/eat/hike alone. Now I really enjoy doing things by myself. I'm not a full out loner, trust me I love when I have the RIGHT company, but I would much rather do things by myself then be with people I don't enjoy. 

This blog post has just turned into me typing random paragraphs about 2013 and has no flow. Did you know that this year I got a 7 out of 15 on one of my college papers because it lacked flow/comprehensiveness. OH WELL. I will continue to write short paragraph about the highlights and the lowlights of my year.

So while I was in Africa I was able to meet a lot of amazing college students. A few that I met talked about joining the PC. I myself had been debating it. One day we went on a town tour and were able to meet and see a lot of people. While on this tour I was thinking about how so many people will never be able to experience this. From this moment I knew I wanted to travel the world, but in a non-traditional way

Also this year my 84 year old grandfather and I got a puppy! His name is Turk and he is a poodle! He is adorable and I love him and he is one of the best things about 2013.

My mentoring at the middle school this year has been way more successful compared to last Fall. My relationships with both the students and teachers are way more developed. I look forward to continuing with it in the Spring.

Overall I've had some pretty low points this year, maybe some of the worse. I felt lonely/stupid/confused/rejected and just awful for quite some time. Luckily I have some amazing close friends and family that helped with everything. Is it weird to say that even though this year had some awfully low moments I've also had some of my shining moments too!?! I feel like I am going into 2014 with my own clean slate finally. This year a lot of things will be figured out and I'm extremely excited to see where it goes! 

This entire post was based off of the song "Timing is Everything". I definitely am not one to believe in everything happening for a reason, but I  do believe that the timing of life events influence future ones. I think everything that took place over this year the good/bad is going to lead me to future opportunities and life choices. Hopefully good ones, but heck I'll get over the bad ones too. 

If anyone else is reading this for some reason I wish you the best in 2014, and even though it's horribly cliche if you don't like the way things are going in your life at the moment try and flip flop them around.


From this post I seriously felt like one of those girls who posted their feelings on FaceBook and Twitter every two seconds... you know them? I just want to remind my future self if ever looking back on this, you didn't. I would like to give a slight shout out to myself for getting through this year if that isn't annoying or anything. You came out a few pounds heavier, but we can work on that. You made it through by yourself, good for you homie. 

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Winterlicious TAG!

So my older cousin recently started making YouTube videos and I obviously think she is really cool. She recently did the Winterlicious TAG which is basically meant for beauty gurus. I unfortunately am not anything guru related and I'd rather be eating instead of make up. Regardless, I tried doing the Winterlicious TAG to be a cool one just like her. 

1. Favorite winter nail polish? 
I'm a lazy bum so I don't wear nail polish because it chips like no other.

2. Favorite winter lip product?
Chapstick. I am a little boy. Especially the chapstick in the egg!

3. Most worn winter clothing piece?
I don't even wear them that much but I bought my first puff vest and now I'm stealing all my older brother's puff vests and I am so cool. 

4. Most worn winter accessory?
A woolie! 

5. Favorite winter scent/candle?
I like scents all year round, and not specific ones? So I really like me some Paris, or uh body spray. Real girl perfume makes my throat close. For candle I burn a Sweet Pea candle year round at school, it only costed 5 dollars because nobody got the money to blow 20 on a candle.

6. Favorite winter beverage?
Hot chocolate that has mint in it tastes real nice. 

7. All time favorite Christmas/holiday movie?
I like the one where the elf finds out he's a human and then does human things.

8. Favorite Christmas/holiday song?
Justin Bieber- Little Drummer Boy. Judge me.

9. Favorite holiday food/treat?
Everyone else said cute holiday treats that they get in their stockings or like yummy candies, but I'll be honest- Mashed Potatoes.

10. What is your favorite Christmas decoration this year?
I don't know, I like trees.

11. What's at the top of your wish list?
Hiking boots, snow shoes, skis, AND this map wall art.

12. What are you plans for the holidays this year?
We travel all over to see every family member on Christmas Eve. Then on Christmas Day we literally do nothing and sleep all day.

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What is my life?

I don't really feel like talking about feels or anything important so this entire post will be dedicated to recent deer in headlight moments- where I literally just don't understand what I am doing.

My favorite gas station employee's name is Karma. Whenever I get Karma I know, life is good. Karma and I call each other friends, and like to throw a casual salute in at each other. He is a pretty big hit between some of my friends and I, and we all love when Karma calls us his friends. Tonight I was alone getting gas, Karma was in front of me attending someone else. I wanted to share Karma with my friends, I thought it be the perfect Sunday night surprise, ya know? I took out my phone aimed at Karma and before I even got my camera open Karma was next to my window...

He bowed to me and said "Are you trying to take a picture of me friend?"

I was mortified..laughed it off, and all I could think is,

WHAT IS MY LIFE?

Today I went shopping with my ma' looking for table cloths. We got really into the search for the best fall looking one. While digging through racks, I realized I should look around my surroundings. Within 10 seconds of looking around I saw FIVE people I went to high school with. I was ashamed, but we did find a really nice fall checker print table cloth..

WHAT IS MY LIFE?

Yesterday at dinner during work I overheard my co-workers saying they were going to the movies. These co-workers are all new and I have known them for three days. I went home and saw a Groupon deal for four tickets for 24 dollars. I don't know why, but I NEEDED to inform them on this. I texted girls I barely know to tell them about a deal on Groupon..

WHAT IS MY LIFE?

Today I watched seven hours of TLC's Sisterwives instead of doing any homework..

WHAT IS MY LIFE?

The other day at work I bent down to tell a group of girls to listen to me. Instead of getting the silence I was expecting, I got a "EW you need to blow your nose"..

WHAT IS MY LIFE?

Yesterday I was at work expecting to work with a group of 10-12 people. The group was 88 people, about eight times more than I was expecting. While I was trying to introduce myself to everyone, I found my eyes watering up. I was so nervous. When the group asked me if I was crying, I lied and said.. No I just have a mosquito in my eye. This made 88 grown adults run around freaking out. City folk don't like mosquitos.

WHAT IS MY LIFE?

My older cousin and I went apple picking. We walked through fields of apples for a hour, bought 25 pounds of apples, and we wanted to pick up some cider and donuts. When we walked over to the store we saw that there was a long line. Instead of waiting the five minute line out, we DROVE thirty five minutes to another apple farm..

WHAT IS MY LIFE?

Fails Happen

I just sat down for the past hour writing a blog post on why today was awful. I had NINETEEN points on how today went wrong. Each point stood for a situation that did not go the way I wanted. I don't know about you, but nineteen is a lot. Rereading the list I felt sorry for myself all over again. I realized that all the points were because I have been so unorganized and letting myself go. I've been lazy, and allowing myself quit sooner than I should. The list, every single one, was because of me.  I was the reason that today was so awful.The world was not against me, I was against me. Isn't that crazy? I was so down all day because of myself. Perspective is crazy man. 

So now I'm sitting in the dark with four candles burning trying to get my mojo back. I was pretty bummed when I realized I did this to myself. But then a plot twist occurred on this situation. The world does not hate me! I hated me for the day and had such a negative attitude. I quit way too soon and should have stuck the day out. I also can't be too upset that I let this happen or else I'm doing the same thing on a grander scale. I just have to chill and reorganize some aspects in my life (mainly my attitude,room, car, planner, and folders.. so everything). Things will be alright as long as I let them. This may sound repetitive to my post the other day, but it's a learning process- it's okay to forget that I'm in control of life.

So to counteract my negative thoughts earlier I'm going to post points on why today was lovely:

I got to wear my green pants, I love green pants.

I received a second job offer.

I had a good night sleep last night.

I somehow managed to do everything on time.

I was going to aim to make ten lovely things that happend for today, but I'm really not going to force it. 

Anyways this blog has literally turned into a giant pep talk for myself, but sometimes that's what you need to do. 

You do what you gotta do.