Fails Happen

I just sat down for the past hour writing a blog post on why today was awful. I had NINETEEN points on how today went wrong. Each point stood for a situation that did not go the way I wanted. I don't know about you, but nineteen is a lot. Rereading the list I felt sorry for myself all over again. I realized that all the points were because I have been so unorganized and letting myself go. I've been lazy, and allowing myself quit sooner than I should. The list, every single one, was because of me.  I was the reason that today was so awful.The world was not against me, I was against me. Isn't that crazy? I was so down all day because of myself. Perspective is crazy man. 

So now I'm sitting in the dark with four candles burning trying to get my mojo back. I was pretty bummed when I realized I did this to myself. But then a plot twist occurred on this situation. The world does not hate me! I hated me for the day and had such a negative attitude. I quit way too soon and should have stuck the day out. I also can't be too upset that I let this happen or else I'm doing the same thing on a grander scale. I just have to chill and reorganize some aspects in my life (mainly my attitude,room, car, planner, and folders.. so everything). Things will be alright as long as I let them. This may sound repetitive to my post the other day, but it's a learning process- it's okay to forget that I'm in control of life.

So to counteract my negative thoughts earlier I'm going to post points on why today was lovely:

I got to wear my green pants, I love green pants.

I received a second job offer.

I had a good night sleep last night.

I somehow managed to do everything on time.

I was going to aim to make ten lovely things that happend for today, but I'm really not going to force it. 

Anyways this blog has literally turned into a giant pep talk for myself, but sometimes that's what you need to do. 

You do what you gotta do.